Like This.

Good things other than voicemail and a comfy chair come with my new job. Like the paychecks. And with those, comes something else.

Being Good

I was good today.
There were people I wanted to call, but I didn't. Because even though I wanted to call them, I know that I shouldn't be calling them. Snaps to me!

I am on day six of my diet (already down 9 lbs.) and through my fog of depression today, I didn't cheat at all. Snaps to me!

I told my dad that I would come over with the children for a BBQ, and I didn't cancel at the last moment. Oh, I thought about it...but I went. There was fried chicken. And fresh, hot garlic bread...and pie for dessert! But I resisted. Snaps to me!

Sorry about the snaps, I got suckered into watching Legally Blonde 2 last night...

Someday

Dear Hex,
Someday, I will listen to a sad song on the radio and I won't burst into tears. Someday, I will hear an Ani song and not think of you. Someday, I will pass by an AutoZone and I won't cringe.

Someday, something good will happen to me, and I won't think of telling you about it. Someday, I will be able to let someone touch me without thinking of your hands. Someday, I won't think of your lips when I kiss someone else's.

I gave you everything that I could give you, without giving up myself. I used up all of the compassion, all of the understanding, and most importantly, all of my trust when it comes to you. Plain and simple, I will not let my children around someone that I don't trust.

Someday, I won't love you anymore.
Always,
Me

Check It Out

This cracks me up. Go ahead, give it a go.

My Big Problem

I hate people who try to mindfuck* me. And it really pisses me off if they do it under the pretense of "love". And then when faced with a psuedo-giving-in or nothing, it all comes down to everything.
But I'm not backing down now, hell no! I will not give up any piece of me, for you.
Not for anybody. So eff* off.




*Notice how I used one word more politely than the other? It's because I am trying not to say the word "fuck" all the time, and the word "mindfuck" is an actual 'something' whereas "eff off" is allowed because I am technically not telling anyone to "fuck off".

Fish Chronicles: The Conclusion

Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you that all the stupid fish died and I put the empty aquarium and the fish-killing filter in the garage.
The End
Who's stupid idea was a fucking fish tank, anyway?

Happy Getting Off Welfare Month!

Here it is, May already. Guess where I am right now as I am writing this? At work! I really really enjoy my job. Would you like to know what I am doing?
To put it simply, I am a welfare worker.
Yes, you read that correctly. The broke mom who tried so very hard to get off of the welfare system now works for the welfare system! As of this month, I make so much money, I don't qualify for public assistance. Anywhere.
Some friends who read this blog have asked me, "Are you going to change the name of your blog since you're not on government assistance anymore?"
Nope. My blog will still be Anyone For GovernmentAde?. However, now we'll see things from the other side. The side of the welfare worker, not the welfare mom. Rather than telling you about what a bitch my worker was, I can now tell you what I as a worker think of the applying public. And you can call me a bitch. Huh.
Good times...good times.