Sunday, January 02, 2011

Just To Think

It's been eight months since I left Husband. He's sweet and charming still, mostly. Sometimes there are blinding moments of clarity when I'm near him, the flashes of "Oh THANK GOODNESS I left him because he's an asshole". I call these moments my Weekly Dose of Reality. He lives in his place across town, I live in mine. We co-parent effectively. We try to be "friends". We still have sex.

I know, I know. What the fuck am I doing, you ask? Eh...I've never been a conventional girl. I also think that the rules don't apply to me. We absolutely cannot live together, we realize that. But there's nobody else we'd rather be with than each other.

A case of the grass is still green over here and there aren't any other pastures? Perhaps. But as much as I'd like to call it 'just fucking', he and I both know that it's not. We kiss and make love/have mindblowing sex and cuddle, and then I leave for my own house.

It's working for us. It's working better now then it has for the last five years. I get my own space, don't have to pay his bills or listen to his bullshit, and get all the orgasms I want. Imagine that.

5 comments:

Lulu said...

Errrm. I do the same. Quite frankly I think we are both winning on several levels.....oh and you forgot to mention you don't have to pick up his dirty socks. Or step over them, whichever way you roll *grin.

Anonymous said...

get a job asshole

Brokemom said...

I am always amazed at the people who don't bother reading the blog they're commenting on. Had they bothered they would know their comment is just silly to a person who, well, has a job.

Passing by said...

I think your blog is great. You have unfiltered emotions and wit. And even when jerks post mindless and potentially hurtful comments, you still choose to keep your blog available to passerbys (like myself).

Sarah B. said...

WOW I understand this becaus e I was in the same situation..well he wasn't an asshole, i was just just self centered. But we lived seperate for two years for me to open my eyes and realize he is the one for me. I hope it all works out in the end for you. :o)